Psychosomatic

That's it. I've determined for sure that this rash I am dealing with is all mental. It's completely psychosomatic. I've been suspecting it since my worst breakout was when I was freaking out on my way to work. Today it let me know that it's all in my head.

Today was my first day where I didn't have to any obligations... almost. I had to go help my mother because I apparently like to have conversations with her in my sleep and make promises that I don't fulfill. So besides needing to finally make good on my sleep talk, I didn't have anything to do. I did have need to take care of some life back up but I opted out.

So back to mental rashes. I tried to blame my breakouts on something that I am possibly laying in on my bed. It didn't quite make sense, but I considered it. It isn't. I stayed in bed for most of the day. YouTube is the only thing that I gave any attention. It was three in the afternoon before I considered that I hadn't seen my phone all day and I may have left it at the restaurant the night before. Three in the afternoon when I finally looked around and thought that I should be using this free day to tackle my life back up. Up until this point I've been laying around in bed. Meaning that I hadn't even gotten up to properly eat. I haven't even thought about itching. Three o'clock and it took two minutes of thinking about all that I needed to do for the rash pop up on both legs. I'm doing this to myself.

What is up with my life that all it takes are thoughts to break me out in a rash? A RASH!

I was suspecting that I may be dealing with too much. I don't know if it's the work load or the non-work stress, but something has me freaking out. So much so that it's manifesting itself outwardly. I've heard of people who got rashes from stress. I've heard of people who's health was affected by their daily lives. I understood concept but for the most part to me it was just a concept. It was a few years ago that I started getting stress headaches. People would say (what I would deem) stupid things to me that complicated everything and I would immediately have a headache. I haven't had that in a while but now I have a rash that comes on when I'm stressed out.

Well, here's one thing to consider: if I'm doing something and I start to itch, I'll know that that action isn't conducive to my mental health and happiness.