And the worst family member award goes to...

ME.

My mother wanted me to watch my niece today. I told I would because she was asking me to, but also let her know that I didn't want to. Just wanted to make sure the record was straight. I just don't have the enthusiasm to handle children, related or otherwise. Unless they are infants. I can deal with infants all day.

One of the reasons I wanted to not have any obligations today is that I was sleepy. As I said yesterday, I feel tired all of the time. Today wasn't any different. Since it was half day, I fully intended on rectifying that. I came home, ate a lot and promptly went to sleep. Then since things are changing in my house, I was woken up by someone getting a tour of my room before my landlady realized I was asleep in the middle of the afternoon. I should tell her sorry about that. Once things settled down again, I went back to sleep for a few hours more.

In the end I did not have to babysit. Events happened and everyone's schedule lined up. There wasn't a need for an intermediate stage of me watching her. Back to the bad family member thing. I am not really a team player sometimes. I feel as though I constantly need to worry about my own navigation through life. Therefore, I often forget that I'm in my family and that I should also keep them in mind. A qualm for not living with family or selfishness? Dunno. It happens a lot and for some reason I always feel blindsided when things are asked of me.

Either way my Saturday was spent the way I wanted. I may actually be well rested tomorrow. I won't count on it though.