Stop arguing! But they're wrong

I'm so distracted. It's hard to focus. Maybe I'll just keep typing and maybe something will come to me. type type type type..... nothing. type type type type.... maybe, oh I can't talk about that. type type type type... distracted by YouTube. Oh, what about:

I'm not good with going against my system. I am particular about the way to do things. A way that I'm not good with straying from. It's a sickness. I am constantly trying to not allow my disappointment or anger take me over when things change unexpectedly. So maybe I am also bull headed. Which only means that I fight to keep my systems in play.

Today was a trial. I wanted to do something that I thought was important. Not only was I told that it wasn't, I was also blocked from doing it with crappy excuses. (I felt they were crappy.) This infuriated me. Being told that things were different, that I was stepping on people's toes, and that I was being ridiculous had me about to go through the roof. I had to tell myself to calm down and build a bridge. It took about an hour and a half for me to not stomp around like a child. Even longer for me to quit being standoffish. I hate to change things when my system makes more sense.

I need to change this about myself. Not being able to adapt when I think someone is being stupid is a serious hindrance. This has caused me to argue with my bosses even when I can tell it's a dangerous stance to take. In case it wasn't known, that isn't a good way to keep your job. Luckily none of my bosses have decided to terminate me for doing so. It get it into my head that the best way to carry out a task it's very hard to convince me to change. I try to blame it on my personality type. Apparently I need to have the benefits of a change made plain. Even I feel that's just an excuse to be cantankerous.

I should get to be bottom of why I feel the need to argue against everything (sometimes for what seems to be for the sake of arguing). Or maybe I just need to learn to control myself.