Even awake I dream

Another day in the bag and I feel as if my world is turned on its head. That sucks. Oh well.

I have desires to learn to do many things. I feel like a jack of all trades sometimes. No specialties in my book. For example, I wish I was a better cook. That I could have a stressful day that only an evening's cooking can work out. I would love it if I could depend on myself to regularly cook my meals. I guess I'm just not motivated enough.

Then, of course, I wish I was more active. Now I know that I can easily change that. Just get off my rear more often. Maybe not consider a day spent in bed a day thoroughly enjoyed. I want a bike to ride regularly. I want to learn how to skate on a penny board. I wish I could take dance classes. Not the ones for beginners where they spend the entire time teaching how to hear the rhythm. No. The classes that spend about 20 minutes teaching choreography and another forty dancing the hell out of it.

What is I was multilingual? If I could meet and conquer any language. I only really want to know five total. French because old movies used to randomly throw in french conversations without the use if any subtitles and I like old movies. Spanish is good to know if you live in America. Not mentioning that our southern neighbors speak it. Italian because I want to go to Italy and it would be easy to learn after I get through Spanish. Finally German because I have no idea why I want to learn so many romance languages. My years with Spanish in high school should tell me that this dream is a bit farfetched.

I wish I was more musical. I know that that takes practice and I am trying. I want to be at the level where I can get sheet music and learn my favorite songs on guitar and/or piano to serenade myself. Nothing has the healing powers of music after all. Being a musical person is such an incredible thing. I would be able to spend hours honing my skills. Submerging myself into this musical place that quells all doubts and calms the nerves.

I don't want to do any of this for money. I would do it all for me. I don't know why I have such grand dreams. Maybe one or two would be attainable but all of them? Maybe that's why sleep is my favorite pastime. I want too much and scare myself into not even trying. Who knows.