I do this thing where I constantly wish I was better at things. Where I wish I had more talent? Where I compile lists of things I wish were better about myself? Whatever. I'm passionate about a lot of things. In the definition for Nerdfighteria, I am a nerd because I get excited about things and am not ashamed. In my excitement I always wish I can see the things I love in myself. This is a never ending pattern. I go to a concert and wish I could play an instrument. I go to a movie and miss my acting days of high school.
In the end I have this list of things that I am in constant want of doing.
-learn to play guitar
-learn to play piano
-be a better bike rider
-learn to skateboard
-build a record collection
-be more active
-travel
Even as I type this list I'm sitting here wondering why can't I do all of this? I have a guitar. I just need to practice. I can't commit to piano lessons until I can play more than four chord progressions on guitar, but I can get there. I want a bike and already know how to ride one. Riding frequently improves my abilities so there is that. I'm eyeing a skateboard on Amazon.com, I just have to purchase it. My record collection doesn't have to happen overnight. I have time to work on that. Then being more active is just me getting off my butt, i.e. riding a bike, learning to skateboard or walking.
I've found myself constantly asking what it is I am waiting for to start living my life. I don't have an answer, but I feel like I'm still waiting for it. That has to change.
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