Should sleep, don't sleep

I fell into a YouTube hole and almost forget my responsibilities to this page. Since I've been doing a lot of not sleeping when I should, conching out when I shouldn't and further jacking up my sleep schedule, it's been interesting how my mood has been fluctuating. I spent the day in such a funk that I couldn't staple a smile to my face and have it stick. I was told that my usual spunk wasn't present. Once we were finally dismissed for the day I was the first one out of the building, into my car and out of the parking lot. Everyone else be damned.

The thing is, I don't think I had a particularly bad day. I mean my pants did split up the inseam in the morning, but that wasn't enough for me to completely feel the day was lost. In the end I just need to admit to it being sleep deprivation. I get up early. I run all day. Yet I don't have the decency to come home and go to bed at a respectable time in order to prepare myself for what's to come. I'm doing it again now. This habit of not turning in like a smart person has kick started my coffee drinking habits again.

I feel like I need a day in bed to get sorted. I'm on the fence about my ability to socialize the way I want. As I've mentioned, I feel like I need to do more things. I don't know what I'm waiting for when it comes to living my life. Between working my jobs and deciding to go out of town and hang out with friends though, I am feeling pretty beat. Of course that doesn't stop me from getting sidetracked and looking up whether or not Tina Turner repaid the Ramada Inn manager for giving her a room when she left Ike. Oh man, I need to go to bed.