Forgo sleep for the love of laughter

I love to laugh and hate to get out of bed. At the moment I am simultaneously treating myself and creating problems. I can't stop watching PoPS updates because the guys is hilarious. Unfortunately that means I am breaking two of my rules. I am writing this here snippet in an attempt to reign myself in and go to bed.

However for the record, happiness is a PoPS update.

Tomorrow is going to be a long day. Full day at work with a extra dose of other tasks.

My fandom sucks

I find myself in danger of becoming a screaming fangirl who blindly defends the object of their obsession without reason or knowledge. It's a shameful state to be in and I should have seen this coming. There have been many a soliloquy of my happiness to follow people. While I do feel is something wrong with idolatry, I do not feel there is a problem with allowing someone to be a positive influence.


The danger comes when we forget that people are human. The screaming fangirl comes in when a pedestal is placed under someone. It's a shame.

I just want to be a fan. I quite enjoy looking up to people. I want to find others who are more talented than me and encourage them. People who help restore my faith in humanity, as it is really rather low. I enjoy the creative and/or extremely intelligent. Though I will admit to listening more to the creative ones. Rooting for someone has always been my thing. I run into problems when I forget that adults, like the people I follow, can take care of themselves.

I don't need to come to the aid of my fellow adults. For one thing, if they wanted to go after someone who's picking a fight they would. I do not need to commit on everything. I do not need to defend these people. Besides, what on earth am I going to do from behind a computer? Absolutely nothing, that's what. I have to remember my place, not only in my life but in the life of these people. In short, I don't truly have a place in their lives and if I do it certainly isn't prominent. They don't need me to go to war for them and it is childish for me to think so. They can defend themselves.

Sometimes I'm really disgusted when I recognize the amount of growing up I still need to do.

Question

Is the phrase "multiple people" redundant? If by multiple you mean more than one person than yes. People by definition is more than one person. Multiple meaning more than one. Broken down the phrase "multiple people" means more than one more than on person. In short, redundant. That answers that.

I feel it's about time I stop saying multiple people. Here is a beginning of my cutting some of the superfluity from my spoken word.

Living life is hard

My new set of rules is making it very difficult to catch up on all that I am behind on YouTube. I've been about 5 videos behind for over a week. It reminds me that I am indeed subscribed to far too many channels. It kills me to unsubscribe. Not that I haven't done so before, but it's something I do only when watching the videos feel like a chore for months. Ridiculous, I know. It's what I do all the same.

Between exercising, having a bedtime, and taking care of home life things I can't seem to find the time to sit stationary for five hours at a time. Then there's the going to be at ten thing. Let me tell you. It's making it very difficult to stay awake after ten.

#30 day to do

I've decided to participate on all of the #30daytodo. It's one of the many things that YouTubers are making up to get their followers to be less stationary. One person thought of 30 days of fitness. They got off a stint of eating terribly and felt "squishy." In response they decided they would eat healthy and exercise while inviting their followers to do the same. Then there is another person who wanted to do September Smash. Basically they wanted to limit their sugar intake and also be more active throughout September. Yet another content creator decided to make a list of things they would start doing in order to establish better habits for being an adult called #30daytodo.

Enter this girl. I already had it in my head to start being more responsible. Not only from a financial stand point but also taking better care of my body. I've unsuccessfully tried to start up these things on multiple occasions. What's better to keep me accountable than someone I don't know who won't actually be able to check up on my progress? Answer: nothing. Not entirely true but it is giving me a reason to start again. I've decided to do a mix of September Smash and #30daytodo. Why? Because it's about time I got my life in gear. Why the mixture? Because half a month is not long enough for me to effectively establish better habits that will get me to a healthier me.

Starting the 15th, here are a few rules for my life, two of which I am currently breaking.

1.  make a budget and stick to it
2.  exercise daily
3.  write daily blogs
4.  practice guitar twice a week
5.  call mother once a week
6.  brush teeth nightly
7.  only eat out once weekly
8.  call brother once a week
9.  call sister once a week
10. set a goal for savings
11. write in journal twice a week
12. be out of bed by 9 AM on days off
13. clean room weekly
14. dust every two weeks
15. vacuum room every two weeks
16. be on time
17. go to bed at 10pm
18. manage time better
19. clean dishes immediately after use
20. drink more water
21. don't snooze
22. drink less soda
23. pay off credit cards
24. finish books in a timely fashion
25. no YouTube after 9:30 PM


I may be editing this list. There are supposed to be thirty items but I could only think of 25. Things have come up that I feel should be added though I don't get to where the list is stored before it's forgotten. The list is a shameless exhibit of the terrible person I am., something that I've made a note of in the past. Now I need to get on with checking off the things on this list.

Better person? Maybe

I guess the thought never occurs to us that people treat us the way we let them treat us. I've decided to grow more of a backbone. However I know that just being confrontational isn't going to help my work life go any smoother. I've also decided to that I need to chill out and not let things bug me as much. That last bit is news to me though.

I want to follow the trend that is sweeping the content creators I'm following. I want to be a better person starting in September. Although I let the first half of the month slide a little. I started it today. I also failed today when I snoozed this morning and was late leaving for work.

I can't really elaborate on this as another rule is that I go to bed at 10pm which is fast approaching. I'm also not supposed to be off the web after 9:30pm as to give myself a chance to get to bed on time. Again I'll elaborate later. Now I must proofread and go to bed.

I'm not one of the cool kids

The last three months has brought too many situations where I'm excluded. I feel as though I am always hearing about things after the fact. I'm supposed to show up and do my part when I wasn't apart of the planning and had no say in how to best tackle the problem. In the worst possible way I feel like I'm in high school. Though it's not like my actual high school, more like the high school where Mean Girls takes place. There are the cool kids who decide what's best for the school and what my duties are. What is that about?

No one seems to understand why I am constantly frustrated. How about asking instead of telling me?