Can I just be less squishy?

I am pushing myself into another diet of sorts. It's not really a diet as those never work. I just want to be healthier. I want to be more active. I feel that if I lost weight I'd be more active. What better way to lose the weight than to be more active. Eh? See what I did there? I have many many problems with losing weight.

For one thing, I need to resist the urge to eat so much. Since I tend to eat so quickly that by the time my body has caught up to the fact I am full, I've overdone it. The problem is the feeling of being hungry frustrates me. It has always been the one thing that bugged me the most. Over the years it was always the only thing that encouraged my brief stints of taking diet pills.

I want to be more thin. By no means to I want to be a toothpick. It's an unrealistic goal that I am not seeking. More accurately, I want to be slimmer than what I am. I just want to feel less heavy. If there is less of me being drug around I may have more energy to bike and run and hike and do things that don't involve being stationary. I can't say how many times recently I've wanted to pick up a new sport. For some reason I want to learn how to penny board. Is it called a penny board in America? A question I keep wondering.

I am trying to figure out this whole thing without going to a nutritionist. I am thinking that I am going to do my best to work out every day. I also want to be more conscious of my portions. Despite hating the feeling of being hungry I want to strive for consuming half my usual portion size. I also want to give myself a cheat day in the month so I am not always consumed by cravings. More specifically I want to do the following things:

• cut soda
• cut juice
• cut sugary sweets
• half my portions
• work out daily

Hopefully I can stick to this. There are a few rewards that I have in store for myself if I succeed. One of which being a day at the theme park riding some roller coasters. It's not that I can't now. Only I've done the walk of shame and I am rather reluctant to find out these hips don't lie. All I want for Christmas is a healthier me. That's my Christmas wish. Truly though, I want to start on July 1st. Here goes nothing.