So sleepy

I seem to have a thing for punishing myself. It's bad enough that I always seem to be tired. Why do I fight my sleep? I stay up all hours of the night knowing that I'm sleepy. Then that is followed by me fighting the need to get out of bed and get on with life. It's a vicious cycle. I don't go to bed at a reasonable time. I don't want to get out of bed. I spend my whole day tired, missing my bed. Even I can't explain the reasoning behind my foolishness. I just can't.