The itch is setting in

It's that time of the year again. That time when I look around and realize that as the year is ending the time to try the new things is dawning. When years come to a close, I always find myself with an itch to try or do something that I don't usually do. I don't know why. I just do.

Let's get one thing straight: I don't like calling them New Year's resolutions. I don't care for making resolutions. I also never keep resolutions when I make them. Never keeping them makes it absolutely true that they are a waste of time. Plus I don't like telling people my resolutions when I make them because it just adds to the guarantee that I won't keep it. Which would mean on top of failure then I'll have people shaming me for not finishing what I've started. (In hindsight, I can only remember being shamed once, but it put a bad taste in my mouth for all resolutions ever.) I just don't make resolutions.

Anyway, back to my point. I try new things. What I love about trying these year long projects (for lack of a better word) is the feeling I get from the planning process. These things really are daunting to me. I get butterflies in my stomach and the jitters as I nail down the specs for the year. It makes me look forward to a new year of exciting things and new accomplishments. I don't always succeed at what I set out to do but having tried in the first place makes me feel all the better.

I've been wondering about my next project. Trying to decide on something simply because it's what I do. I was trying to force it. That doesn't work for me. I have to wait for it to come to me. Today it did. I'm still in the middle of nailing down the specifics. Which means that I am extremely extremely excited. This always makes me anxious for the start of the new year. Now I can't wait.