Rehearsal dinner tonight

The festivities are beginning tonight. My friend is getting married this Saturday and the rehearsal dinner is tonight. I'm driving an hour to get into the town where the wedding will be held. Personally I cannot wait. I love long drives, I give the best concerts while driving alone. Everything that she's been stressing over will be done for me at the end of this weekend. The little bit of drama that has been plaguing her nuptials haven't been too much to handle. Thanks to the expert hand of the Matron of Honor, I am being guided into the correct way to redirect stress away from the bride. We, the bridal party, will get our bride through this weekend so help us God.

The countdown to the wedding winding down has me also thinking about what's to come afterwards. I should be worried about my mother's party but all I can think about is Warped Tour! It's happening in a week and I'm so excited. It's crazy because I'm following the people that I'm looking to see on YouTube. They are in the Philippines right now. I'll be seeing them live in a week and they are wrapping up a tour on the other side of the world. I can't imagine a life like that. I'd love a shot at it though.

So: wedding in two days, mother's birthday party in a week, Warped Tour right after that, then that following week another concert is coming through town. The urge to write let the games begin is really difficult to fight. I'm so excited.

Play ball

Thanks to a co-worker who has Bible study I got to go to the Rangers game. He planned his ticket purchase around the Bible study but after he purchased the tickets the study was rescheduled. Rather rudely, might I add. Though I shouldn't be too overly critical. The reschedule along with his dedication is what got me tickets to tonight's ballgame. I went with my friend from work. The guy, at this point, was desperate to not allow the tickets to go to waste. He asked if we had plans and once we confirmed we didn't he offered us his tickets.

The game was a lot of fun. First we focused on getting our hands on some over-priced food. When at the game you must have hot dogs. Afterwards we went to our seats only to find seat thieves nestled in and comfortable. After we eradicated them we settled in. The game was pretty excited. Fewer people got hit by foul balls. I think this may have been an injury free game as far as the attendees were concerned. Unfortunately, the Rangers lost. By a bit. Ending the game 3-8 Baltimore. Maybe they'll have a comeback later this week.

All in all it was a good night. I had fun.

Let the games begin

It's go time. June has arrived. I have so many things to do this month.

First there is the wedding in which I am a bridesmaid. It's the first week of June, as in right now. I have off most of the week. Schedules for the next week have been nailed down. Dresses have been fitted. I still don't know what to do with my hair but the bride doesn't seem to care. Her only note about the matter when I mentioned her wedding pictures that will forever document her day was that she has never seen a picture of me that she didn't like. She's very sweet to me.

June marks the beginning of my summer of music. Warped Tour is in two weeks. Two weeks. Then another band is coming in the week following that. Also, since the summers are long here I have a concert coming up in August. I want to find one to go to in July because that would be dope. I'll keep an eye on the events websites. Bring on the music.

My mother's birthday party in also in two weeks. It's going to be a big bash. People are coming into town to celebrate. It was a source for a bit of stress for me, then my aunt took over the planning. I still can't thank her enough. While I haven't really had a first hand in planning the party, I will still be glad when everything goes off without a hitch.

The summer has arrived. Things are happening.

I don't want it!

Beware the reputations you build for yourself. My co-workers have it in their heads that I am a guzzler. It may be my past actions that put that there. Who knows. I cannot go out with them without hearing the disbelief if I say I'm not drinking. It's become a bit exasperating. Tonight was such an occasion.

I made a decision to limit my alcohol intake. I did a bit too much the night before and didn't want to push my luck. I set a limit that was reenforced by the sick feeling I kept encountering when an alcoholic beverage was sat in front of me. It seemed as though every time I declined a drink people bemoaned the old days when people were more fun and more drunk. It didn't change my mind. I still put a stop to my drinking unless it was a soda or water.

It's ridiculous that I allow myself to be peer pressured. Tonight was an exception. Usually when people get to moaning about my lack of drinking, I start drinking. It doesn't usually end well. Tonight was different. I managed to make it stick. I don't want the drink. I don't care if you cry, I don't want it!

Fog

I am navigating my day through a haze of hormones. It sucks. I can't seem to make a rational decision. Everything is the end of the world. I want a large glass of wine and time to not talk to other human beings. I know that humans are naturally social creatures. I know that insanity awaits those who can't talk and be with other humans.

Sometimes though, I feel like all I need is a little solitary confinement.

Crappy moods and crappier days

Another day going by with my whining about how I can't seem to get out of my bad mood. I wish I had access to better music while I worked. Listening to the same eight elevator songs everyday really weighs on me.

Yesterday was a day of nothing happening. I stayed in bed all day. I think I only got up four times. Twice to use the bathroom and twice to get something to eat. The remainder of my day was spent laying in and watch videos. I had laundry to do, trash to take out, and a room to clean but none of that made it on my to do list. Yet, even with lazing around all day it still felt like the day ended too soon. Going to work today was difficult.

What I get for waiting to eat.

I'm hungry. I've been sitting here for a while too enthralled in what I'm watching to get up and eat. Meanwhile time has gotten away from me. It's far too late for me to be considering food. Yet, I am so ready to eat whatever. Thoughts of many different meals have gone through my head. Between watching videos and wanting to be a loner, I have managed to skip dinner. I want everything now.

I contemplated ordering pizza. Fortunately I was too lazy too look up and deals. Besides I am thinking of ordering pizza tomorrow where I can eat it all day. I knew that I would order two pizzas, even though it's excessive. I managed to talk myself out of it tonight because I didn't want the discomfort of lying on an overstuffed stomach. Admitted overeater.

I wanted Chinese. Someone in one the videos I was watching was eating Thai food that looked like lo mein. That just so happens to be my favorite. Due to having Chinese for lunch plus believing that the place I want Chinese from is closed I was able to nix that option as well.

I considered a burger, Chipotle, Taco Bell and Ramen. None of these has inspired me to get up. I'm still hungry. I'm thinking that I'll probably just settle for Ramen. That or go to bed and deal with it all tomorrow.